Blogmas Day 13 - Dear Little Me

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Note: This post will contain mentions of mental illness/mental health. Please take caution when reading and if you're triggering by reading about mental illness - please do not read on. Also, whatever ways I suggest for dealing with MH is how I deal with things and they may not work for everyone! As well as this, I am not a qualified mental health practitioner/counsellor/psychiatrist.


Welcome to Blogmas Day 13 everyone! For the post for today, I wanted to do something personal and MH related, so I decided to write a letter to my younger self, which I also want to show my future child(ren).

"Dear Little Me,

For now, things are going good for you and you've not got a worry on your plate. Nothing bothers you and you're a happy, optimistic and friendly little girl. I wish this was going to be an all positive story to tell, but it's not going to be.


You'll have your friends, a close knit family and a good life. Everything will seem perfect and you won't have a worry in the world. It's easy for you as a kid, especially when your family care so deeply for you. But unfortunately, when time goes on, things will change.

You'll start to grow up, the friends you've got now will blossom and grow towards other people and you'll be lost a little bit. You'll find new friends when you turn 11 years old and move up to high school. Things will be different there, although, will get harder. 

You'll experience some things which should never happen to a human being, and that will make you a bit unstable, confused and withdrawn for a while. Just know, when it's all over (and it will be), you'll be the strongest girl of your age. You may not believe me, but you will. 

With everything that you've gone through, you'll feel like you've had to grow up a little too fast - that's okay. 



Be careful who you trust, because you will make a few mistakes and it'll back fire. It's a learning curve and you'll feel like you have nobody to talk to, turn to or hang around with... But you'll know who to trust. You won't know why, but it'll be there in the back of your head, that feeling and that voice telling you that "You can trust this person". You need to believe that.




Family circumstances will begin to get difficult too, and things happen for a reason. High school will be a drag for you, especially due to the people who are bullying you. Please remember, that it will stop and I'm happy to tell you that you won't see them ever again - you just need to hold on that little bit longer. The friends you have now in high school, they'll be there for a while but soon you will drift and sometimes make contact with one or two, but even thought you guys don't talk much, they'll still be your friends.




Going back to the family stuff, it's going to get a bit... Messy, unfortunately. You're going to be strong during this, although when you turn 19 years old, it'll dwell on you a bit - but you'll still be fine. You also may think that there's nobody in life that is for you, but there will come a day when everything seems dark, you'll have a source of light and that'll change things for you.




The time to leave home at the age of 18 and move to university will come, and it won't be easy for you. Anxiety will be your enemy while you're trying to pave your way into adulthood and into being a student. You'll struggle to adjust to the new setting, but you'll have good friends and eventually a good relationship to see it through and make it enjoyable for you. Your grades will be better than you thought in the second half of your first year, but the first half of that year, your grades won't be as good. This isn't your fault, okay? 

I know you'll blame yourself because it's what you do, but those grade results aren't to do with you - even though you did write the assignments. Things will be going on where your focus, concentration and emotions won't be part of your work and going to lectures. You'll hit your rough patches, but you'll also shine like the star you were created to be.





2016 will be a very up and down year for you. There will be things that you'll enjoy and that will make you happy, but there will be your downfall for a little while. Depression will hit you and it'll take over for a tiny part of your life. This is not the end, though. 




You're going to be at the starting line of the rest of your life, and it's okay to not know what to do. You're going to be like other people in that aspect, but don't worry about it at all. It's all part of growing up, unfortunately. 


Your story will inspire people though and you're going to really want those who are struggling with difficulties themselves. Please continue to do that. You're a smart, empathetic and approachable - use that and go forward in life.

Don't stop believing in yourself.

Love,
Chloe
x


What would you tell your younger self? Let me know!

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6 comments

  1. This is such a beautiful post. You are such a strong girl. I loved reading this!!

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    1. I actually teared up reading this comment. Thank-you so much for this, it honestly means the world and more to me <3

      - Chloe
      xoxo

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  2. Beautiful! The younger you would be proud of the woman you are becoming! Keep smiling love! ��

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    1. Thank-you so much, Demi! I hope the younger me would be proud too, and I hope my future child/children are too❤️

      - Chloe
      xoxo

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  3. I can relate to so much of what you felt, and you're so strong dear x

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    1. It's weird having such a "swings and roundabouts" life (as my boyfriend says), I must admit. I wish it was plain sailing but it never is. Thank-you so much Abi, so are you x

      - Chloe
      xoxo

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